I can't believe I have a blog. I actually skipped my evening workout just so I can finish it. I rarely skip my workouts. I usually do 2 workouts a day. The first one is right after work. 45 minutes-1 hour and the 2nd round is in the evening after dinner. Around 1 hour also. I always aim for 2 hour workouts a day. But with work, baby and taking care of the household, time is not on my side. This is where my obsessiveness comes into play. If 3pm comes around and I still have not done my 1st round, I start to feel panicky. I am always home around 11am from work and Lily is usually taking her first nap around that time. So I quickly change into my workout clothes and make the best of the little time that I have to exercise. But sometimes things don't go according to plan and she wont take a nap. Andrew is usually in bed around this time (He works graveyard shifts) and it is just me and the baby so if she doesn't want to nap I just wait until she does so I can have my fix (ummm exercise that is)
Aside from feeling panicky, I notice I start to bite my nails really bad if I have not exercised. To the point where I draw blood. Andrew says I have a problem and I need to talk to a counselor. He says I have become too obsessed with losing weight.
But, I read somewhere that it takes obsession and determination to lose and maintain your ideal weight. Why do you think people are so overweight and obese? Because it is so easy to become that way. How easy is it to just sit on the couch with a box of Twinkies, watching your favorite show, absentmindedly popping one Twinkie after another. Ridiculously easy. The majority of people have no idea how much they snack throughout the day. Is it any wonder America is the fattest county in the world? IN THE WORLD! Now that is embarrassing.
So yes. I rather be obsessive about my calories and exercise than to be the person that I was before. Not obsessive about my health.
If you weren't obsessed I wouldn't be down 11.5 pounds. I don't want you to get anxious about exercise, don't make me worry about you!!! :) But I understand the anxiety as I felt it when I was down and out this past weekend. I just never want to see the number I saw at the beginning of this journey again. Thank you for being you!
ReplyDeleteDo you work out at home when Lily is asleep and if so what do you do?
ReplyDeleteYeah. When I workout at home, I usually wait until she takes her nap or when I put her down for the night. I have a nice little collection of exercise DVDs.
ReplyDeleteRight now though, my favorites are Turbo Fire, Insanity, The Biggest Loser Last Chance Workout and Cathe Friedrich Shock Series. These are not meant for beginners. They are very intense and will make you sweat like never before. BUT, they burn the most calories.